Always confused

I'm slowly becoming of the opinion that I am in a constant state of confusion and that for me to be at any time in any a state other than one of confusion is purely anomalous. There are so very many things which confuse me. One, and probably the most obvious to me and to anyone reading this that has or has ever had testicles, can only be described as women. Another, as I have previously expressed, is the function of the beaurocracy(it's probably not spelled right but my spell check isn't working and I'm not about to look it up in the dictionary). A third thing that confuses me completely and utterly, which is much related to the first object of my confusion/attraction/obsession, is the girl. The first, I'm affraid, can't be expressed in any more certain terms than what is simply there. The second also I feel though it is not nearly as nebulous as the first is quite self explanitory. The third is what I think will need some clarification.

First it is necessary to draw a distinction between the two parts of "the girl" (that's right, there are two parts). First is the physical girl, which as you might imagine cooresponds quite neatly with women(see above, "One, and probably...), and really depending on who you are this doesn't even need to refer to women it could just as easily refer to men, all depending on your tastes. The second part of "the girl" is purely conceptual. This "girl" doesn't have to be a girl, doesn't have to be a man either, or a person, it doesn't even need to exist anywhere but in the mind of the one who pursues her. Really, "the girl" could be just about anything that is sought after. That said, you're probably wondering why(unless you know me) I chose to refer to "the girl" in just those terms. Well despite the wealth of Romantic liturature I've been reading(that's Romantic as in the style(as in the era) and not as in content or subject matter), I needn't remind you that I am a twenty three year old, single, heterosexual, caucasian, male, with too much time on his hands. Also there has been a rich tradition in refering to the unattainable as female and I figure it can't hurt to follow suit despite all that neo-feminism-earth-mother-crystal-rubbing-hippy-bullplop(I'm not sure why I'm being so hostile or even if half of that little mini rant is even relevant... hmmm...).

Anyway, those are a few of the things that confuse me. On other news I just shaved my beard today, for those of you that didn't know I'd grown a beard and just this morning I shaved it... I look like a baby. I'm not sure but I'm hoping that this might help with at least one of the areas of my confusion, not me looking like a baby, but rather me not looking like a homeless person. Also in unrelated news I'm just getting over being sick. I'm not exactly sure what I had other than a general feeling of crap accompanied by sweating like a madman, and coughing like an old chevy that just won't turnover. Now all I have is the coughing and a rather sore throat... probably from said coughing... but that has yet to be proven...(shifty eyes)... more to follow.